In my meditation a few days ago, I heard the following from Tamara Levitt: “Ideally we hold expectations as a compass that points the way but not of a map that dictates every step of our journey. It’s healthy to have an idea of where we are headed, but through the practice of mindfulness we learn not to form rigid expectations of what our expectations will be on this path. We want to meet whatever me meet with openness and not compare it to what we expected to find. Leave room for the unknown, the surprising, the new and the unforeseeable.” That resonates very much with me. There is an inner calmness radiating through me at the moment that enables me to be more in control of my emotions.
Many of my meditations this week featured putting focus on understanding and managing my emotions. In fact, it is not just these meditations, it is also my sessions with the wonderful women in my entourage that are evoking this kind of feeling. Be it Carol, my psychotherapist, Camilla, my yoga teacher, Charlotte, my partner in crime as well as lessons I am receiving from the books I am reading. All in all, this notion of going slow is actually enabling me to be more in tune with my surroundings and where I’m going. I’ll leave how I get there to the universe.
“Blessed is he who expects nothing for he shall never be disappointed.” Alexander Pope
If we lay all our arteries and organs in a line end to end, they would stretch right round the earth . That is incredible!! According to Wes Nisca, a well known Buddhist monk, or Scoop, as he is sometimes called. He also says that if we are made up of atoms which are made up of 99.9% of empty space, what is holding our clothes up?
“There are only two ways to live your life. One is though nothing is a miracle, the other is if everything is a miracle “ Albert Einstein. I prefer the latter. Not only am I appreciative of every day, every moment of that day, but I am also able to stand still and look around and appreciate what I have and what there is, rather than what I am hoping to get or look forward to getting. I am more more content with what I have rather than what I don’t have. And then any improvements are truly perceived as miracles. And I’m experiencing those every day.
We are able to cultivate gratitudes, improve our mood just by mindfully giving space to our “awe” . Awe introduces us to something that is bigger. Something that is almost unbelievable!! And it makes us more generous to others. That’s why I like awe . Apparently, as children between the ages of two and four, when we are able to talk, we ask 44,000 questions! Wow!
There is a total lunar eclipse happening now. A total lunar eclipse can affect the energy around you for the next 2-3 years. This kind of eclipse is a super Full Moon – like a Full Moon on steroids. This is a rare event that only occurs every other year, on average.
According to the Pattern, “Though you’re independent, you have an energy that encourages others and serves as a way to support your family and friends. With your drive and ambition, you have the potential to channel your many skills and achieve something special.”
This reminds me of something a Spanish writer wrote, Jose Ortega y Gasset: “We cannot put off living until we are ready… Life is fired at us point blank. If you don’t do this now, you’ll never do it.”
So much awe. Awesomeness 🤩. This new version of myself, this new so-called identity is still very much focused on calmness and serenity. I am not letting myself be wound up by others and falling into the trap of arguing or discussing meaningless elements that are not interesting to me. If someone has something to say, a point of view, I let them have it. I don’t judge or criticise and I’m able to let them keep it and not react to it. That’s new!
And the fact that I am conscious of this state is also new! It is warming and kind in myself and radiates energy outwards. Positive and nonjudgemental energy. Yesterday’s session with Camilla is still in my system and now I have Emma and forest bathing which I’m really looking forward to.
I am in my own little bubble slowly getting better. I’m progressing and it fills me with warmth. I have occasional thoughts about what I’m missing out on but they don’t trigger or linger too long and they are always replaced by other thoughts. I feel that I am very much at the centre of my present state. I’m pretty much 100% in the present. No past and a little more organised future and masses of present. I am realising that it is this state that matters to me and makes me different. I am able to give 100% of me to whatever I am turning my attention to. That focus is being rewarded with wonderful feedback from the people that I am surrounded by.
The wonderful and beautiful friends and family. It is really motivating and awe inspiring to be my natural self with everyone around me.
Loving it! 🙏